So here it is

I have been wondering alot of things and seeing alot of things and asking alot of questions lately, but that doesn't seem to amuse many but myself.

I have a hard time understanding how it is a can repeat the same story over and over and over again and...it is not understoodd!!!! How could it not be understood by now???? It has only happened about a dozen times now. Hopefully with the new illuminations I will be able to.

What is this new path that will lead me to a new direction? And who is it that says I will benefit from it? What is to benefit? What is truth?

And how is it that you live it when you do not?

There comes a time in your life when you spend your time and day feeling things, and then you sense of feeling goes. Ha. And now you only want to get back to the way you felt when you felt.

And what are emotions? When you want the same thing over and over and over again or have you never really gotten it before? SO how do you differentiate?

I intend to come out of this with an understanding that my ancestors never had, I intend to retrieve my power, my life force, my love, my life and my everything so that what I envision in my life becomes true.

I intend to break from the cages that have been put upon me and the everything that has tried to cage me.

The time has come and if I do not live, if I lose more of myself because I try, once again, to achieve my goal of true freedom, I don't care. Because I will have my true freedom. And I will live it out forever until I go home.

Because if I do not try, once again, then I will have lost. My true purpose is to try at least and to try and continue trying so I will strive to keep doing it.

written by  napulelehuameae on February 23, 2008 from Eugene, United States
from the travel blog: My Life
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