It was probably a combination of the retail therapy, touching base with a couple of folks back in Auckland as well as Loody over in Australia and maybe even being back at Rowena's Lodge, right back where I started when I first got to the country and catching up with a couple of the old faces there but whatever it was, I realised I'm happy. Properly, truely, happy. Not just the kind of happy that you are because you're distracted, you're chatting to a mate or rolling down a hill in a big plastic ball or swimming around in a cave full of glow worms. It's the kind of happy where, even on your own, left alone with your thoughts, you still have that feeling of inner bliss.

Well it fucking took long enough! I was only with the girl for 3.5 bloody months for fucks sake! I usually leave a good couple of years between proper relationships because that's usually how long it takes me to remember how pointless they are and how bad I actually am at them. I'm not girlfriend material, me. I'm moody and demanding and much easier to get on with once you learn to worship me and yes actually that was the world you just saw revolving around me now where's my cup of tea, wench? Fortunately Kama reminded me of this in record time leaving me to enjoy singledom again. And I do enjoy being single. And in all honesty I was with her for ALL the wrong reasons.

Aaaanyway, thats enough of that emo bollocks for now thankyouverymuch. I've dragged myself out of the pit of self pity I was having a damn good wallow in and the cynical, anti-romantic bitch is back.

I'm off to kick some puppies.

written by  Koala Bear on January 30, 2009 from Wellington, New Zealand
from the travel blog: Tiny Little NZ Road Trip
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